Last night was weird.  I went to bed super early and then woke up around 4 am and couldn't get back to sleep for an hour or so.  I had a million things running through my mind, most of them Shawn related.  I finally fell asleep again and had another completely realistic dream where he came home to me and he kissed me and told me everything would be okay now.  It felt so good to be in his arms again.  Then I woke up and the "Shawn feeling" stuck with me all day.

Then I went to do laundry and put my clothes in the dryer only to find it wasn't working.  So I had to take my wet clothes to Chris and Lindsey's house to dry them.  Which meant I needed to use the sturdier laundry basket I have, which was Shawn's...which has had stuff in it forever, but I never use it so I've never needed to empty out the clean towels and blankets that were in it.  But today I did and found two pairs of Shawn's socks at the bottom.  Such a stupid thing like that still cuts like a knife, especially after I just had a super real dream about him.

So things didn't start off well today.

Then on my way to Chris and Lindsey's I stopped at the red light before I turn onto their street.  I looked and didn't see any cars coming, so I did a right on red, but out of nowhere this car comes barreling through, honking its horn, so I immediately tried to pull over to get out of its way, but it had already started passing me before I could.  It shook me because I was that close to being in an accident and as soon as I pulled into their driveway I just sat there and cried.

The rest of the day was better.  Odin got his hair cut and I ran into Sue in Petsmart, so she hung around to see him.  Then I came back over to Chris and Lindsey's around 5 and we ate dinner and watched a movie.  Now I'm in the guest room with Odin.

Tomorrow should be a better day.