Weekend

Well, its been a weird and fun few days.

Let's start with Friday.

After work I drove home and met up with my friends Steph, Nicole, Jess, and a few other friends I haven't seen in a long time.  We ate dinner and watched fireworks.  It was a good night.

Earlier my mom had messaged Shawn's mom about the rent check.  So that night my mom called me and said his mom had gotten back to her saying she wasn't sending it, she was keeping that last check to cover Shawn's half of the security deposit.  So mom wrote her back telling her she has been sending me less money than what Shawn paid and she brought up all the other expenses I've had to take over since he left (Odin, bills, etc).  His mom came back with no understanding why Shawn would pay more in rent than I would why would he pay the electric bill if he's not living here, and Odin wasn't really Shawn's dog, I wouldn't even "let him" bring Odin to their house when he visited.

This women has absolutely no idea what our relationship was like and it doesn't help that Shawn hasn't seemed to clear anything up about it.  Shawn has always paid more in rent than I did, it's an agreement we've had since we started living together.  It's not any of her concern and if she would ask Shawn about it hopefully he would confirm that.

The Odin thing really bothers me too.  Shawn loved Odin.  They were buddies.  He took care of him just as much as I did, took him for car rides, took him for long walks.  Odin was his dog.

His mom doesn't know anything.  She has no idea.

Mom told her Shawn should be the one dealing with this with me.  She told her she would tell him and let him deal with it.  So that means it will never get dealt with because Shawn is a coward and can't deal with anything that involves me.

After thinking about it all weekend though I think I'm just going to let it go and get these toxic people out of my life.  I'm considering sending his mom a message telling my side of things, but I don't know.  I know I shouldn't care what she thinks of me, but I do.  I hate that she has all this wrong information about me in her head and I'm the bad guy when I didn't do anything wrong and her son is the one who did a terrible thing.

So yeah, Friday night was fun except for that.  I actually cried right there on the phone when mom told me all of this.  I hate what this has all come to.

Saturday Steph and I went to Darien Lake to the Warped Tour with her 15 year old cousin and her friend.  It was pretty fun, took me back to when I was that age and that pumped about the bands that were playing.

Sunday we went to the Canadian side of Niagara Falls for the day.  That was a good time.  I did keep thinking about how it was exactly a year ago that Shawn and I went there together and how I had no idea then where we would be today.  Life is crazy.

I think these thoughts led to the dream I had on Sunday night/Monday morning.  I was at some kind of gathering with my co-workers and Shawn appeared out of the woods.  He walked over and we talked about something, I can't remember what.  But then he put his arm around me and we walked together.  It was another one of those "he's back" moments.  Then I woke up remembering it so clearly.

On Monday we went back to Darien Lake to go to the theme park.  Steph and I rode every roller coaster.  Its been a long time since I went to a theme park.  The last time was at the six flags in Springfield, Massachusetts with Shawn before we started officially dating.  He knew how bad I wanted to go, so we went, but he didn't tell me roller coasters made him feel incredibly nauseous.  He ended up feeling really sick.  So I never asked him to go to another theme park with me.

Then Monday night I was back here in Albany.  It was a good weekend despite all of the rent drama. We'll see what happens with that.

I was officially given Homecoming weekend off, so I am going to go to Michigan to see Hanson with Talia!  I'm so excited about that.  It definitely gives me something to look forward to and that's always good.

I'm still deciding what I'm going to do about this weekend.  There is a work picnic at Thatcher Park.  I don't really want to go, mostly because I don't want to see Spencer and his girlfriend, who he posted that he loved "more than anything in the world!" on facebook the other day.  Yup, definitely a typical 21 year old boy.  Glad to be rid of him.

These picnics also make me sad that I'm alone.  Shawn would have gone to something like this with me and I would have looked forward to it.  But now I'm just kinda bummed thinking about going alone and seeing everyone else with their significant others.

So, I don't know.

Here is my favorite picture from the weekend.  Me and Steph waiting for the fireworks over the falls.