Had a minor freak out tonight.  I went to write the check for my car loan payment and saw the book with the slips I need to include with it wasn't where I always keep it.  I had no idea where I could have put it and started looking all over the house.  In my search, looking in drawers and through random papers I got hit with more Shawn memories, our bus ticket stubs to the city, his Albany voter registration papers...he's still everywhere.  And I still get sad.  As much as I think I'm ready to move on and face life without him, I still have moments where I stop and still can't believe he's not here.

I did end up finding the slips in a spot I had already looked in twice.  In a spot I do not remember putting them.

I mailed out the new lease and the rest of the new security deposit to my landlord.  So Shawn's name is officially off the lease.

Its been a pretty good week.  Our regional manager and our vice president of the company were visiting this week and took everyone out to dinner on Tuesday night and tonight.  So two free dinners, which also meant two lunches because I couldn't finish either meal.  On Tuesday at dinner I got my pin for being with the company for 5 years (it was actually 5 years in January, they're a little slow).  The pin is nice, but I wish it came with a raise instead!

I have my date with Blake tomorrow.  I'm seriously nervous.  Like way more nervous than excited.  I really want it to go well.  I hope I'm not super awkward.