Can someone make the dreams go away?  I swear I'll never move on if I keep dreaming about him.  I don't even remember the dreams that well, but I know he's in them and I feel like my life is normal again.  Then I wake up feeling close to him, but I'm not.  He's not here.  Seven months later and I still can't believe he isn't here.

I need to move on, but I don't know how.  I don't know how to not constantly think about what he did.  I know I'll never get over it, but I need to find a way to just accept it and not dwell on it.  It's just so hard to accept that someone I knew so well, shared a life with, and loved so much could just drop me like I was nothing.

Here I go dwelling on it again.  So time to talk about other things.

The doctor called yesterday to tell me the results of my echocardiogram.  According to her I have a perfect heart.  Everything is normal.  So, good to know.  Since everything came back normal and I feel fine I'm just going to write off passing out last week as a fluke.

Sarah is coming up this weekend!  I'm excited to see her.  I know I saw her last Friday, but this time we'll be able to hang out just the two of us and I've missed that.

Tomorrow is Friday.  I like Fridays.

Yay good things.

I told Dave this weekend wouldn't work for rock climbing, but we could do it another time.    So we'll see what happens with that.