This music is a place to hide

I wish I could always be as happy as I was yesterday.

I love Hanson.  I really, really do.  Last night was my 25th time seeing them live and I never get tired of it.  During the show last night I was singing along, standing there in the front row and I just remember thinking that I always want to feel like this.  One line from their song Dancing in the Wind goes, "this music is a place to hide" and I feel like that describes how I felt last night, just living in that moment.  I was able to hide from the all of the things I have going on in my head for a little while and just feel genuinely happy.

The whole day was awesome.  From the walk, to the show, and even waiting outside in the cold after the show.  I couldn't feel my feet, but I got to meet Zac, which is far from the first time I've met him, but it's always special for me to meet them when I do.  I think it goes back to me as a kid and loving them and their music and just dreaming about getting to meet them one day.  Now they're just so approachable.  They've been such a huge part of my life since I was 10 years old, so I'll never tire of seeing them live and in person.

So I would describe today as like coming off of a natural high.  I spent all day yesterday with Kristina in my Hanson world, seeing them and seeing friends I haven't seen in a very long time.  I had so many other things on my mind.  But now I'm back and I'm sitting here alone again.

On Monday night I had a thought that Kristina's car didn't have a USB port, so charging my phone could be an issue.  I knew at one point I had a car charger for my iPhone, but I'm pretty sure it's in Shawn's car.  Actually, I'm positive I left it in there.   I ended up borrowing Lindsey's.

I saw my friend Glory yesterday for the first time in probably about 7 years.  We talked about how I've been living in Albany for almost 6 years and she asked me if I lived alone here.  I told her I was living with my boyfriend...but now I'm not.  She didn't push it, she just said she was sorry.

So even on my happiest days I still can't get through it without something coming back to him.

Anyway.  This is me high fiving Taylor Hanson.

...and my grainy, midnight, freezing cold picture with Zac.

My favorties.