Sometimes I just really miss having a best friend.

I mean, I have friends.  I have people in my life I can talk to and hang out with.  But besides my mom, I don't really have anyone else I am completely open with.  I miss Shawn in that way so much.  I really did consider him to be my best friend and sometimes I just want so badly just talk to him about nothing.

I don't know what to do about Dave.  He tried to call me tonight.  I didn't answer.  He texted me that he was bored in a hotel in Delaware.  I didn't text back.  I don't want to be a jerk, but I don't know what to say.  I've definitely thought about it and I don't want to date him and I'm sure that's what he's going to get at.

Right now I want to make getting in shape my priority.  Maybe in the spring I'll think about dating again.

I'm sad.

I don't know why I'm still awake.