Well, another one of my high school friends just got engaged.  I am happy for her, but I just feel sorry for myself.  I want it so bad.  I want to be engaged and I want to get married.  But I am so far away from that happening and it makes me sad.  I still can't believe I have to start all over.

I have to believe it's coming.  That I will meet someone and be happy again.  That I will have someone in my life that loves me and wouldn't ever dream of leaving me.  But in the back of my mind I am scared that it won't happen.

Yeah...I hate this.