Shawn has a new girlfriend.

For some reason I got curious today and threw his name in google.  I found his new online profile on some kind of weird facebook-type site.  It says he is dating a girl named Natalia and she has been posting on his wall there since March.

I can do the math.  He broke up with me on March 31st.  Her first post on his wall was a link to Sting's "Shape of My Heart" in late March.  A few days later she posted a song called, "Lucky you, Lucky me."

So he apparently started seeing this girl before he broke up with me.  He was probably hanging out with her that entire month that he stopped talking to me.  So while I was sitting around crying all the time and losing my mind, he was off having fun with another girl.

What a terrible person he became.  I never saw any of this coming last year.

I've spent a good portion of tonight crying over him again.  Wasting tears on him.  I did go over to my friend's place, though.  He cooked me dinner.  Shawn never once cooked me dinner.

I'm just so tired of all this.  I sometimes wish I could forget that I was ever happy with Shawn.  That way it was be easier to move on and accept what he did to me.