Well, I guess I saw this coming.

Spencer and I talked today and decided we should just be friends not try to pursue anything.  Well, he decided.  I tried to tell him this last week, but he still wanted to see if we could make it work.  But the work thing makes it way too complicated, neither of us want to worry about something happening to our jobs.  Plus, I knew in the back of my mind that it wasn't a very good idea.  He's 21 and in a completely different place in his life.

I hope we do stay friends though.  He was there for me before, I hope he can continue to be there for me.

Anyway, I'm kinda bummed out today.  I'm just lonely and sad.  Spencer wasn't the right person to come into my life to help me out with that on a romantic level, but I hope someone else comes along soon.  At least he helped to realize that I just might be ready to be with someone else, as long as they're the right person.

I got a jury questionnaire sent to my parent's house.  I needed to show that I don't live there anymore by giving them two forms of proof.  One was my lease, so I pulled that out and made a copy of it.  The last page has my signature along with Shawn's and the date that we signed it, which was last June.  I can't believe how much has changed since then.  A year ago I was so happy.  I thought I knew where my life was headed.  I told Shawn this would be the last time we moved and we could be happy in this house.  I saw us here together for a long time.  I had no idea back then.

I miss what my life used to be.