Feeling lonely tonight.

Spencer has a friend here that he is hanging out with.  Sarah moved out of her apartment and isn't in the area anymore.  Kristina is working late tonight.

I kinda don't know what to do with myself, so I packed up some of Shawn's stuff, which made me feel sad...and angry.

He hid his VK profile, finally.  So now I don't have to see it anymore.  I wonder if he hid it because of me.  Doesn't matter, I'm glad he did.

I had a good time with Spencer last night.  He is just so cute and nice and I love spending time with him.  There was was moment last night when he was trying to get Odin to jump up on the couch into his lap.  He was tapping his leg with his hand, but Odin wouldn't come up so he tapped my leg to see if he would come to me.  Odin still wouldn't come up, but he left his hand there for a little bit.  I wanted to reach out and grab it.  But I didn't.

Stupid work rules.

I hate how complicated this all is.  I really like him, but I can't be with him in the way we both want and I don't want him to see other girls, but I can't expect him not to if he can't be with me.

I'm kind of hoping he will come to some big revelation that I'm who he wants to be with and I'm worth finding another job for.  But I know that probably won't happen.

He's having a party tomorrow night.  It probably would not be appropriate for me to go since he is inviting other student workers from the bookstore.  Plus parties and drinking isn't really my thing.  So I'm probably going to sit here lonely tomorrow night too and hope that he's not hooking up with another girl.  He totally could, if he wanted to.  Have I mentioned how attractive he is?

He told me he would probably be drunk texting me.  We'll see how that goes.  I kinda hope he does so at least I know he's thinking of me.

I'm not going to see him again until Sunday since he's not working anymore this week and  has the party tomorrow night and then he's going home to work a job on Friday through the weekend.  He asked me at work if we could hang out and watch Supernatural again on Sunday night.  He even said please.  He's adorable.

Alright, back to feeling sorry myself and wishing I wasn't alone.