Sing it if you know it...

Odin thought he was one of the things that would be sent back.  I told him not to worry, I was keeping him.

So, all of his things are out on the porch.  Heather, my friend and manager is going to go to the house tomorrow and supervise.  At first I didn't think anyone really needed to be there, but after the desk freak out I decided it was better to send someone.

I'm almost done with them.  All I need is for the stuff to be gone and the last rent check.  I hope that last check isn't an issue.  We didn't ask them to bring it with them tomorrow because we didn't want her to ask about the security deposit again.  If we tell her Shawn isn't getting any of that she probably won't send it.

Also, she said she wanted the coffee table back, which was one of the things I planned on keeping.  I mentioned this to one of my managers and it just so happened that her husband's cousin was having a garage sale this weekend and was selling a coffee table for $10, so mom and I went and picked it up today.  So that worked out!

The wedding was fun.  I was afraid I was going to feel awkward going alone, but it was fine.  I'm really happy for them, but I did find myself feeling a little sad at times.  Especially when Bart and Kristina had their first dance and then they invited all the other couples to come dance too.  I was left completely alone at my table to just watch.

Sometimes I look at my life in terms of "what this moment would be like if Shawn were still here" and at the moment it was all I could think of.  I would have looked at him and said, "come on!" and he would have protested a little, but he would have gotten up and danced with me.

I want what they have.  I want a wedding.  I want to be with someone who knows me so well and loves me.

I've been talking with Joey online just about every day.  When I get back up to Albany we're probably going to meet.  Hopefully that goes well.

I can't wait until tomorrow is over.  Even though I'm not going to be there I'm still dreading it.  I just want that text from Heather telling me they're gone.