I don't know why, probably because I was feeling crappy last night, but I decided to go through my old messages with Shawn on facebook.  There isn't much there besides me begging him to talk to me in January/February.  But I did find a conversation we had while sitting in the same room from January of last year.  I miss this.

Me: sup man, what are you doing?

Shawn: Leave me alone :)

Me: no :)

Shawn: This is stupid :)

Me: your face is stupid

Shawn: Ouch

Me: remember when we used to talk on aim?

Shawn: Yes.  Way to bring the conversation to a dead end.  Failure.

Me: Just like old times.

Shawn: Why don't you tell me about a dream you had?  That would be equally exciting :)  Also, here is what I'm thinking about:

1- I need to pick a new hockey team
2- I am outrageously hungry.
3- I love you
4-but not as much as hockey :)

...and I'm not reading that novel you are typing

Me: one time i was driving in my car and then i fell out of it right before it drove itself right into traffic but it made it across western without being hit and ran into a bank but didn't need any repairs because it was fine and i was relieved..then i woke up!

Shawn: not reading it, I don't know what you said

Me: aww and I like #3. I forgot how nice you are online.

Shawn: :( <--that's you.  You're a gloomasaurus.  That's latin for "gloomy lizard."  Or something.

Me: lets talk online from now on.

Shawn: Okay.  It'll be great.  I'll call Dr. Phil and tell him how it made our lives better :P

Me: gotta go, bye.

Shawn: Okay.  Lates.

That's the Shawn I miss.  The Shawn who would sit in the same room with me and talk to me online and be silly.  I wish I could have that Shawn back.  But I realize he's not that person anymore. 

Still waiting to hear from Spencer.  He texted me one more time last night, I texted back and asked how he was doing at home and he didn't reply.  I'm trying not to look too much into it.  He'll probably text tonight.  I hope.  I'm feeling pretty down, I could use him right now.