I had today off. I took Odin for a walk on campus and saw our old landlord's wife. She was across the street walking her dog. I think she saw me, but I pretended I didn't see her and purposely walked in the direction I didn't need to go in to avoid her. I didn't want her to ask me how Shawn was doing because I'm sure she would. She got to know us pretty well when we lived in our last apartment and she always liked us a lot. I did wonder what I'd say to her if we did actually talk. I'd probably just tell her Shawn was fine and we were fine.
My friend Jess and her husband are on there way here. They're spending the night and tomorrow I'm driving them to the airport so they can fly off to Jamaica. I'm definitely looking forward to having them here.
Tomorrow I'm going to go to my parent's house until Sunday.
No one will understand this unless they watch Community, but right now I think of my life having two specific timelines. I don't know which one is the darkest one, but right now it feels like this one where Shawn left me and I'm miserable without him. Then there is the one where he stayed and didn't go and we lived our lives together. I guess there is a third one that could have happened, where he handled things better and we came to an understanding, so he left but we still stayed in contact and he came back. I'd take either of those timelines over this one.
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