"You have options. All of them are terrible, but you have them."

I made it through the whole day without crying.  I mean, there are 3 hours left so I'm not ruling it out, but I think I'll make it.

I did feel pretty terrible this morning though.  I woke up from another Shawn dream and I didn't want to get out of bed.  I've been dreaming about him pretty much every night.  We usually just talk in my dreams and we're usually happy.  Sometimes he does something in them that he would never do even when we were together and happy, like tell me he booked a cruise for us to go on.  So it always sucks to wake up from that.  There were and are still days that I wake up from a Shawn dream and feel genuinely disappointed that I'm awake.  I'd rather just stay in that imaginary world where things are good.

But I had to get up and go work.  My eyes felt heavy all morning.  I just wanted to go home and not work for 9 hours.  Around noon I began to feel pretty good and rest of the day was better.  

I got home around 6:30 and was completely prepared to just take a shower, get in my pajamas, and sit on my couch watching TV until I went to bed.  The weather was not awesome today.  It was cold and rainy.  But Odin had been cooped up in the house alone all day and I thought he deserved a long walk.  I texted Sarah to see if she wanted to come along and she did, so we met up with her.

It was a good walk.  We didn't talk about Shawn once.  Also, I'm probably going to start going out to trivia nights with her next week.  I just need to get out and be distracted.

I'm watching Parks and Recreation.  I wish I could have a relationship like Ben and Leslie's. They're pretty much perfect.

I think I'm going to start taking pictures of things that make me happy every day.  Today it's Odin in his sweater.