Kristina and I used to work together. She was one of the first good friends I made when I moved here. She left the bookstore a year ago and I miss having her around there terribly, but the good news is she lives only one street over and we get to see each other pretty often.
She is getting married in June. Shawn and I were invited to the wedding. I'm kind of unsure of what I'm going to do about that. I want to go, of course. But I don't want to go alone. I also know I'm going to be sad because of what I'm going through and I don't want to be sad on her day. I asked Sarah if she would go with me, but she thinks she has to work at her art studio that night. She's looking into it. If Sarah can't go with me I don't know what to do. I guess I'll just try to suck it up and go alone.
Things like this were so much easier when I had Shawn.
So Kristina and I walked 4 miles tonight. She brought her dog Watson along so Odin had a friend to walk with too. After that we went out to eat at a diner down the road.
I haven't seen her much since all of this stuff with Shawn went down, so she has only heard about it from what our friends have told her. So we talked about it and I cried a little. Sometimes I can get through a conversation about the situation and be okay, but most times I can't help it.
Today at work I was doing a book buyback for a customer. After they sold their books we have to write the date in our initials on the inside cover. I opened the first book to do that and saw Shawn's initials from when he bought that same book back almost two years ago. It made me miss him so much in that moment. Just a stupid thing like seeing his handwriting.
Time for bed. Mom is coming up tomorrow, so there may not be an update for a couple days, but I do have a picture for today. It's Watson and Odin on their walk tonight.
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